3 hours before my born day - 10 may 2011

I'm so excited...bukannya ngarep dikasih surprise ato apa yah (basa-basi haha), tp sebentar lg umur aku 22 tahun....im so old (lebay) tp i think being 22 is beautifull, gorgeous, and fabulous...(azzeeiik)... well, ga tau kenapa makin tua rasanya makin biasa aja, cuma agak deg-degan dikit ajah gitu hehe, inget-inget dulu waktu usia belasan tiap jam 12 malem tgl 9mei selalu deg-degan menanti surprise hahaha....tp kalo sekarang yg penting doanya sajahh (maksudnya duit ;p)haha...kiddin ;p

well, i have a bounch of wishes but wishes will come true when we keep it secret, so i call this as resolution on my new age, i decided to write it so it could be my reminder,,,hehe
1. semoga skripsi ku lancar dan tidak mengalami hambatan yang berarti sampai bisa sidang di tahun 2011 ini. dan dapet nilai yang maksimal sempurna cumlaude. amen.
2. semoga dapet rejeki tambahan dan bisa nyari duit lagi untuk ditabung. (bullshit, padahal utk fixie)
3. semoga di usia 22 aku bisa travelling lagi ke tempat yg bener2 belom pernah aku datengin, thailand, china, or maybe....US??? ahaha..who cares, dreams could be anything..
4. semoga di usia 22 aku makin disayang...uhuuyy...mksdnya disayang Tuhan, orang tua, dan sesama.. ok, to be clear, harus jd orang yang lebih baik lagi, ga egois, loveable, caring, dan ga cuek
5. semoga di umur 22 i can improve my english by take an english courses....dimanakek yg bagus kan banyak tuh.. masih belum tau dimana
6. semoga di usia 22 ini fixie guweh makin oks bangget dan makin megangs gitu dewh...biar gaol gimana gimana gitohh...(bacots)--> ngarep ada yg ngadoin aerospoke
7. semoga di usia 22 ini ada satu potensi dari diri aku yang bisa aku sadari dan bisa aku kembangin banget...dan bisa jd bekal buat masa depan, tapi apaan masih gelap..
8. semoga di usia 22 ini aku murah rejeki yahh :)) sudah cukup lama hidup sederhana dan bawa bekal ke kampus ;p sniffs...haha
9. oowiyaahh, di usia 22, i really wish that i could dressed like blair waldorf (oks bgt ga sih korban sinetron bule haha),,,tp emang udah waktunya deh agak-agak punya konsep dalam personal style, and i love blair since i whatched gossip girl...
10. di usia 22 i really wish i can cook well, especially deserts, more specifically cupcakes and macaroons --> krn dua hal ini ga tau kenapa belom bisa ampe tergolong bisa bgt, bahkan macaroons nya gagal total kemaren,,huh hah
11. semoga di usia ini makin punya tujuan hidup, makin jelas gambaran masa depan, dan makin semangat menyongsong hari esok, pursuit of dreams, eventough i still have no idea what it like to be...
12. hadeuhh banyak keinginan ampe bingung, yah semoga saya makin cermat dan bijaksana dalam perjalanan menuju pendewasaan..terutama ga BM terus-terusan di saat ekonomi sedang sulit. kalo lg makmur nabung kalee jgn pedah pedah mulu... *aduh keselek
13. last but not least, akhirnya sudah kutuliskan semua yg kuinginkan, dan aku menyukainya, dan aku bersyukur atas setiap kebahagiaan dan kesedihan yang terjadi krn it makes me who i am... dan i know di stiap masalah Tuhan ga pernah ninggalin kita sendirian. so just be brave and no worries,,,,

ps : i love my mom.dad.grandma.brother.boyfie.friends.family.neighbour.dogs.bike.and all the parts :D

iloveyouall and always pray for you the amazing things that we're going through together

So, HAPPY 22 YEARS OLD....have an outrageous age, myself... GBUs

one thing that i love

i have a bike. and it called fixed gear, because it has only one gear and it fixed. You can build your bike just as wild as you want. haha. but I like PINK so i designed my bike in pink colour. but i realize that i've grown up so it seems childish when i put all parts in pink....well, so this is what i'm talking about...




you can also built your own bike!!!and make some fun with it, it can be your dailylife purpose (lebay!) and also motivates you to earn some money,,hahaha, that's happened on me...and i do feel happy when some of my friends also decided to make their own bike, so that we can make a bike's community...(can you imagine how cool is that??!!haha)
Nowadays, Fixie become more likely a trend, and i think thats positive because it makes you happy... you can get some fun yet healthy through FIXIE!!!

this is what im dealing with...

One thing, it gets lovely every day...and that means it gets harder aswell..
I'm not ɑ risk taker person, but this time I made an exception which I don't know why I was decide it..but unfortunately, I'm not regret it..
Yeah, I'm happy, with my own choice...and I seemed not too care about anythings forward, but the truth is I do.. I covered my worriness with my optimistic thingking and positive feeling...and it helped ɑ lot..
But i tell you, when you meet something best in ur life, u just don't wanna step forward...I'm too afraid to know how could it be at the end... Can I hold it thight forever? Like it was only made for me...can it be my destiny?? Cause I really feel like I finally found the one...
Tp klo kata alkitab, terjadilah seturut imanmu, lupa ada di ayat mana, tp itu yg selalu kupegang, dan I hope that my faith leads us to be together...

try to accept something we don't like

Saya ga suka cwo cuek, actually...
Saya suka cwo yg perhatian dan mau nyariin saya, but in ɑ good way, gasuka jg kalo terlalu over nyariin mulu krn itu jelas bikin risih...
Saya gasuka cwo yg uring-uringan dan suka ngeluh...
Saya pgn cwo yg bs nrima saya apa adanya saya, meskipun saya manja, suka rewel, tp di balik itu, hati saya sekuat baja...*hehe
Saya suka cwo yg care, sweet, full of surprise, meskipun ga too much...either in his action or his way of thingking...
Saya suka cwo yg respect dan selalu dukung saya...
Saya suka cwo yg punya prinsip...dan prinsipnya hanya utk bikin saya bahagia ♥ ♥ ♥
Saya suka cwo yg mau saya peluk terusss because I ♥ to hug so much...
Saya suka cwo yg sometimes, every word that he said, suddenly make me wanna hug him tight...because its to sweet to be said...hihi

But in fact, sometimes I just don't get all of it on my boy...krn dia CUEK....but, that's called love when you abble to try to accept something that comes from ur partner, anykinds of it, trima apa adanya, selama bumi masih berputar, selama itulah saya akan selalu bljr menerima dia spt apa adanya...semoga dia jg mau bljr utk menerima saya apa adanya...
Then as time goes by, everythings will be just fine... :))

my very hard week, yet my very weak me

Minggu ini berat bgt. Kata pertama yg menggambarkan ceritaku. And I feel so week during this very hard week. Senin ujian kompre kontes!!! Ini menegangkan bgttt, krn hasil makalah kelompokku jg ga bagus2 bgt, banyak salah, mana waktu komprenya jg ragu-ragu jawabnya!!! Help!! Pengen nangis!! Gara2 ini jg di hari selasa yg notabene adalah hari libur pun aku masih ga bisa menikmatinya krn harus nge revisi makalah kontes aka konstruksi tes psikologi! Mata kuliah paling 'mematikan'di psikologi!!!

Huufhh!! I've done it finally and I ask to God His kindness so that I can pass this subject!!! Pleaaasssssee gamau bgt ngulang ya Tuhan :(

Besides my assignment problems,,ada jg beberapa masalah pribadi,masalah hati, masalah perasaan :(( and this problems makes me so sad!! Deep down my heart I'm just ɑ human and ɑ lot of things just happened and it makes me scared!! :( I just wanna be happy, I don't want anything else!! I'm okay with anything as long as we still be together!! Through all the bad times :) *ireallywishforthattrustme* harus banyak2 berdoa!!! Aku bukan org yg sempurna, sering bgt bikin Tuhan kecewa, tp aku tau Tuhan denger doaku!!everynights, everyday, I pray and always ask him for one thing :) He knows it, and let Him do His will for me and my life. Aku cm berharap semuanya akan baik2 aja! Tetep bisa bahagia, sama2, selamanya :)

when we face a difficult time...

I've learn a lot about this painfull time, heartbreak, complicated, dilema, but one thing that is really important is no matter how hard the situation is, every breath that I take, I feel I'm blessed...

If you have this kind of situation this time, just remember my words : "You gotta live. Stand for it, because no matter how difficult your problem is, you still have to know how it ends" that is the only reason you have to stand still above your hard time.. And I do belive, life is wonderfull... We already know, if we want to taste ɑ happiness, we all need to be sad, because if we never feel sad, we never know what exactly the happiness is?

So, be thankfull all the time for what you got in ure life № matter how painfull it is, because you know that without this painfull time, you never gonna taste ɑ happiness, and you never feel that life is gonna be just fine and awesome..

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Sunday, 26 sept 2010...

Hari ini saya malas ngapa2in,,bener2 ingin menikmati saat2 bermalas2an yg setotal-totalnya!! Dan ternyata diem drmh seharian penuh itu sangat menyenangkan. Dan saat2 spt ini sangat jarang saya dapatkan..hmm biasanya dr senin-sabtu pasti keluar rmh, sampe drmh tinggal capenya doank,,

Di saat me-time ky gini justru byk bgt inspirasi yg dtg, byk bgt hal-hal menyenangkan dan unik yg ga prnah kt pikirkan sblmnya muncul tb2 di pikiran. Well, sometimes its funny...
- Saat ini sy tiba2 sadar bahwa saya org yg memiliki banyak minat, tp belum satupun terkoordinasi dg baik..
- saya tb2 berpikiran apa jadinya hdp ini jika petis tdk pernah ditemukan (oke, yg ini memang random!!maaf)
- saya berpikir bgmn saya akan menghabiskan waktu hdp saya sampai saya tua nantinya,,
- saya berpikir apakah suatu hari nanti saya bisa memiliki bisnis sendiri dr salah satu minat saya yg sudah saya realisasikan,,
- saya berpikir akan memiliki brp anak kah saya nanti?? Dan saya selalu berdoa agar anak2 saya lucu,manis,pintar,dan menyenangkan...
- saya jg berpikir mau sampai kpn saya menyukai wrna2 standar yg disukai perempuan yaitu "Pink"(menandakan betapa standartnya selera saya haha)..
- saya juga berandai2 kapan saya bisa melihat dan menyentuh salju dan membuat boneka snowman dari salju itu
- kapankah saya menjadi perempuan yg pandai memasak?? (Ini pertanyaan sangat penting krn selama ini sy suka makan tp tdk prnah mahir dlm memasak)
- saya jg berpikiran apakah saya akan memotong rambut panjang saya mjd pendek cepak ekstreem spt dulu
- yg plg membuat sy bertanya2 adalah : stlh sy lulus kuliah nanti, apakah saya akan bekerja di bidang psikologi ataukah di bidang yg sm skali tdk berkaitan dg itu??
- apakah pacar saya ini adalah suami saya nantinya?? Hmm, we will never know, I wish he will, but it all gonna be my biggest suprise

Well, segala pertanyaan yg sebenarnya bisa saya jawab sndiri nantinya, it all just the matter of time...and I always know, klo berjalan bersama Tuhan, I never have to worry about my future, krn Dia punya rancangan terindah buat saya dan hdp saya...amin..