when we face a difficult time...

I've learn a lot about this painfull time, heartbreak, complicated, dilema, but one thing that is really important is no matter how hard the situation is, every breath that I take, I feel I'm blessed...

If you have this kind of situation this time, just remember my words : "You gotta live. Stand for it, because no matter how difficult your problem is, you still have to know how it ends" that is the only reason you have to stand still above your hard time.. And I do belive, life is wonderfull... We already know, if we want to taste ɑ happiness, we all need to be sad, because if we never feel sad, we never know what exactly the happiness is?

So, be thankfull all the time for what you got in ure life № matter how painfull it is, because you know that without this painfull time, you never gonna taste ɑ happiness, and you never feel that life is gonna be just fine and awesome..

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Sunday, 26 sept 2010...

Hari ini saya malas ngapa2in,,bener2 ingin menikmati saat2 bermalas2an yg setotal-totalnya!! Dan ternyata diem drmh seharian penuh itu sangat menyenangkan. Dan saat2 spt ini sangat jarang saya dapatkan..hmm biasanya dr senin-sabtu pasti keluar rmh, sampe drmh tinggal capenya doank,,

Di saat me-time ky gini justru byk bgt inspirasi yg dtg, byk bgt hal-hal menyenangkan dan unik yg ga prnah kt pikirkan sblmnya muncul tb2 di pikiran. Well, sometimes its funny...
- Saat ini sy tiba2 sadar bahwa saya org yg memiliki banyak minat, tp belum satupun terkoordinasi dg baik..
- saya tb2 berpikiran apa jadinya hdp ini jika petis tdk pernah ditemukan (oke, yg ini memang random!!maaf)
- saya berpikir bgmn saya akan menghabiskan waktu hdp saya sampai saya tua nantinya,,
- saya berpikir apakah suatu hari nanti saya bisa memiliki bisnis sendiri dr salah satu minat saya yg sudah saya realisasikan,,
- saya berpikir akan memiliki brp anak kah saya nanti?? Dan saya selalu berdoa agar anak2 saya lucu,manis,pintar,dan menyenangkan...
- saya jg berpikir mau sampai kpn saya menyukai wrna2 standar yg disukai perempuan yaitu "Pink"(menandakan betapa standartnya selera saya haha)..
- saya juga berandai2 kapan saya bisa melihat dan menyentuh salju dan membuat boneka snowman dari salju itu
- kapankah saya menjadi perempuan yg pandai memasak?? (Ini pertanyaan sangat penting krn selama ini sy suka makan tp tdk prnah mahir dlm memasak)
- saya jg berpikiran apakah saya akan memotong rambut panjang saya mjd pendek cepak ekstreem spt dulu
- yg plg membuat sy bertanya2 adalah : stlh sy lulus kuliah nanti, apakah saya akan bekerja di bidang psikologi ataukah di bidang yg sm skali tdk berkaitan dg itu??
- apakah pacar saya ini adalah suami saya nantinya?? Hmm, we will never know, I wish he will, but it all gonna be my biggest suprise

Well, segala pertanyaan yg sebenarnya bisa saya jawab sndiri nantinya, it all just the matter of time...and I always know, klo berjalan bersama Tuhan, I never have to worry about my future, krn Dia punya rancangan terindah buat saya dan hdp saya...amin..

He said that everthings gonna be Ok!!!!

‎​SORRY but its true :/

ONE DAY A DAD COMES HOME DRUNK AND MAD. HE PULLS OUT A GUN AND SHOOTS HIS WIFE AND THEN TURNS THE GUN ON HIMSELF. HIS LITTLE GIRL SITS BEHIND THE COUCH CRYING. THE POLICE CAME AND TOOK THE LITTLE GIRL TO A NEW FAMILY. HER FIRST DAY TO SUNDAY SCHOOL SHE WALKS TO THE BUILDING AND SEES A PICTURE OF JESUS ON THE CROSS. THE LITTLE GIRL ASKS THE TEACHER: how did that man get off the cross? THE TEACHER REPLIED: he never did.THE LITTLE GIRL ARGUED: yes he did, the night mommy and daddy died, he sat next to me behind the couch telling me everything was gonna be alright.

------this is ɑ true story------

That's what it gonna be, could be, and always be...

Sometimes when everythings seems perfect,,but its not meant to be, so, it'll never gonna make it.....
And sometimes, everythings such ɑ complicated, kind ɑ mess, but it meant to be, so, it still feels lovely...

But that's what life gonna be, could be, and 'seems to be' like always be.....

And when everything feels warm, happy, and safe....just go for it,,,eventough it could be ɑ complicated one.....but I'm pretty sure that as long as you do the right thing,on the right purpose, then God will guide your heart....and He will be responsible for your problems, because He'd already give you the way....so, I think, no matter how hard it was, but its meant to be....so, just move on it....cause I know for sure, if you never gonna let God down,,never give up something that God ever give you....altough its been too difficult to be done, God will never leave you...

Just go get your happiness, no matter what.... =) and don't be afraid of anything!!

on the last day of 2009..

Today, december 31, 2009...

Many things happened in 2009...and for me, its not easy to forget this year,,well, ɑ lot of things, happiness, trouble, laughter, sorrow, presure,etc..haPpened to me this year..

I thought, 2009 would be ɑ great year ever....but the truth is, not yet..
And everythings happened so unpredictable...but still, I know, I always believe that happiness will come around us...cover up everything that have been messed up..

On this last day,,
An honesty will be so meaningful for me,,for moving on my life,,for making me live just like the new one...
Now, I'm listening to this song, and I think it still happen to me sometimes, this is an honesty,, and I gotta let myself know that I can live my life better after this last day...

_ɑ song by Alter Bridge_

"In Loving Memory"

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

Ooo's

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
____________

# that was ɑ perfect song... guess I have to be better tommorow, on the 1st day of 2010,, so, I listen to this song, feels that i have to be honest, so that I can leave it all behind...on this last day of 2009..

Memories never been easy to erase...but we can still going on our steps to move forward, so, just leave it all behind...

I promise myself,,that I can do everything to complete my spirit...fullfil my days with hope and dreams that can still be true...because from now on, every breath that I take, it won't remind me of those painfull stuffs anymore..

I'm just the way I am...
I'm nothing but ordinary..
I'm everything I am because God loves me
And I realize that there still ɑ lot of people out there who will be my happiness, my spirit, my dream..

May Jesus guide my heart and make me strong,, and I wish loves may come around me for all this long time..

Said, Welcome 2010!!!!! I definetely ready!!!!!

"tell them all...."

"Tell them that you love them before they leave you"

Sering ga si ngrasa gengsi buat ngomong sayang sm org?? Even itu ortu kita sendiri, adek, ato kakak kita sendiri..
Klo sm pacar sih, ampe eneg2 kali yah blg sayang...tp bahkan sama org yg paling deket sama hidup kita aja susah kan buat ngomong sayang...

Krn pasti kita mikirnya, yaelaaah, gw sayang kog sm ortu gw, ga usah dibilang mrk jg pasti tau lah...hmm,,emg sih...adek gw jg ga pernah blg syg sm gw,,
Tp percaya ato ga, pernah sekali dia blg dia sayang sm gw, dan itu bikin gw terharu bgt, pdhl sbenernya gw jg tau kalo dia sayang sm kakaknya...
Cm dg kata2 sesimple itu, udah bikin kontribusi besar buat hidup gw....dr sejak itu, hubungan gw sm ade gw jd makin deket,,makin seru,,bhkan gw blom bisa matahin gengsi gw dg bilang sayang jg ke dia..parah, sama adek sndiri aja gengsi...

Byk org mikir, sayang ga perlu diomongin, cukup ditunjukkin aja...well, tp mnurut gw, somehow it feels different if you tell people that you love them..
Just let them know...before they leave you...
Krn gw ga akan pernah mau ngrasa nyesel krn blom sempet blg klo gw sayang sm org2 terdekat gw...and some other people whose make my life feels wonderful..

Eeerrghhh...knp si hrs ada kata gengsi, jaim, dsb...scr ga sadar itu semua bikin kita ngelawan kata hati kita...

Love always comes from our heart..
Love always sweet to tell..
It can never failed..
It always works..
Say the magic spell, I ♡ u..
Then, you can make their life seems wonderful..
And you shall never know how it feels when your simple word can change the way people face their life...

Klo gw, gw mau bilang :
I ♡ u mom
I ♡ u dad
I ♡ u oma
I ♡ u adek
I ♡ u guys
I ♡ u .... ***hmm.

Mulai skrg, gw mau coba beraniin diri to let them know that I ♡ them..

Is this really true???

Waktu itu gw dikirimin pesan berantai ky ginian nih,,dan pas gw baca...hmm...lucu juga nih...intinya sih fact about girls...stlh gw pikir2 ada benernya jg...yaah..mari kita liat bersama...

When a GIRL is quiet... millions of things are running in her mind.
(Belum tentu, bisa aja lg ngantuk atau mati gaya,hehe)

When a GIRL is not arguing... she is thinking deeply.
(Ini jg blm tentu sih,,bisa aja emang lg males berdebat..)

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions... she is wondering how long you will be around.
(Iiihh,,,kalo ini mah cwenya aja mukanya kepo...)

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds... she is not at all fine.
(This is true, its so true..hehe...)

When a GIRL stares at you... she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' ... she means it.
(Yeah,,I really mean it..but, how about boys?? № one ever know it, girls..*huufh*)

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.


Life only comes around once, make sure u spend it with the right person.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
(Like this!!! Ya iyalah, gw sih risih klo ada cwo yg blg, "you're hot"...NGERI!!!)

who calls you back when you hang up on him.
(Hmm,,hmm,,yeah, pastinyaaa!!)

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
(Woww,,sweet...udah ky edward cullen aja...klo disini bisa diusir sm mama-papa keluar dr kamar...masa cwo masuk2 kmr cwe...)

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
(Well, I think this is true,, it means he loves you and respects you either)

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
(Awas aja ampe enggak..hahahaha...)

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
(Ya ya yaaa, asal jgn kebanyakan ngegombal aja, basi!!)

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!!