on the last day of 2009..

Today, december 31, 2009...

Many things happened in 2009...and for me, its not easy to forget this year,,well, ɑ lot of things, happiness, trouble, laughter, sorrow, presure,etc..haPpened to me this year..

I thought, 2009 would be ɑ great year ever....but the truth is, not yet..
And everythings happened so unpredictable...but still, I know, I always believe that happiness will come around us...cover up everything that have been messed up..

On this last day,,
An honesty will be so meaningful for me,,for moving on my life,,for making me live just like the new one...
Now, I'm listening to this song, and I think it still happen to me sometimes, this is an honesty,, and I gotta let myself know that I can live my life better after this last day...

_ɑ song by Alter Bridge_

"In Loving Memory"

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

Ooo's

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
____________

# that was ɑ perfect song... guess I have to be better tommorow, on the 1st day of 2010,, so, I listen to this song, feels that i have to be honest, so that I can leave it all behind...on this last day of 2009..

Memories never been easy to erase...but we can still going on our steps to move forward, so, just leave it all behind...

I promise myself,,that I can do everything to complete my spirit...fullfil my days with hope and dreams that can still be true...because from now on, every breath that I take, it won't remind me of those painfull stuffs anymore..

I'm just the way I am...
I'm nothing but ordinary..
I'm everything I am because God loves me
And I realize that there still ɑ lot of people out there who will be my happiness, my spirit, my dream..

May Jesus guide my heart and make me strong,, and I wish loves may come around me for all this long time..

Said, Welcome 2010!!!!! I definetely ready!!!!!

"tell them all...."

"Tell them that you love them before they leave you"

Sering ga si ngrasa gengsi buat ngomong sayang sm org?? Even itu ortu kita sendiri, adek, ato kakak kita sendiri..
Klo sm pacar sih, ampe eneg2 kali yah blg sayang...tp bahkan sama org yg paling deket sama hidup kita aja susah kan buat ngomong sayang...

Krn pasti kita mikirnya, yaelaaah, gw sayang kog sm ortu gw, ga usah dibilang mrk jg pasti tau lah...hmm,,emg sih...adek gw jg ga pernah blg syg sm gw,,
Tp percaya ato ga, pernah sekali dia blg dia sayang sm gw, dan itu bikin gw terharu bgt, pdhl sbenernya gw jg tau kalo dia sayang sm kakaknya...
Cm dg kata2 sesimple itu, udah bikin kontribusi besar buat hidup gw....dr sejak itu, hubungan gw sm ade gw jd makin deket,,makin seru,,bhkan gw blom bisa matahin gengsi gw dg bilang sayang jg ke dia..parah, sama adek sndiri aja gengsi...

Byk org mikir, sayang ga perlu diomongin, cukup ditunjukkin aja...well, tp mnurut gw, somehow it feels different if you tell people that you love them..
Just let them know...before they leave you...
Krn gw ga akan pernah mau ngrasa nyesel krn blom sempet blg klo gw sayang sm org2 terdekat gw...and some other people whose make my life feels wonderful..

Eeerrghhh...knp si hrs ada kata gengsi, jaim, dsb...scr ga sadar itu semua bikin kita ngelawan kata hati kita...

Love always comes from our heart..
Love always sweet to tell..
It can never failed..
It always works..
Say the magic spell, I ♡ u..
Then, you can make their life seems wonderful..
And you shall never know how it feels when your simple word can change the way people face their life...

Klo gw, gw mau bilang :
I ♡ u mom
I ♡ u dad
I ♡ u oma
I ♡ u adek
I ♡ u guys
I ♡ u .... ***hmm.

Mulai skrg, gw mau coba beraniin diri to let them know that I ♡ them..

Is this really true???

Waktu itu gw dikirimin pesan berantai ky ginian nih,,dan pas gw baca...hmm...lucu juga nih...intinya sih fact about girls...stlh gw pikir2 ada benernya jg...yaah..mari kita liat bersama...

When a GIRL is quiet... millions of things are running in her mind.
(Belum tentu, bisa aja lg ngantuk atau mati gaya,hehe)

When a GIRL is not arguing... she is thinking deeply.
(Ini jg blm tentu sih,,bisa aja emang lg males berdebat..)

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions... she is wondering how long you will be around.
(Iiihh,,,kalo ini mah cwenya aja mukanya kepo...)

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds... she is not at all fine.
(This is true, its so true..hehe...)

When a GIRL stares at you... she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' ... she means it.
(Yeah,,I really mean it..but, how about boys?? № one ever know it, girls..*huufh*)

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.


Life only comes around once, make sure u spend it with the right person.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
(Like this!!! Ya iyalah, gw sih risih klo ada cwo yg blg, "you're hot"...NGERI!!!)

who calls you back when you hang up on him.
(Hmm,,hmm,,yeah, pastinyaaa!!)

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
(Woww,,sweet...udah ky edward cullen aja...klo disini bisa diusir sm mama-papa keluar dr kamar...masa cwo masuk2 kmr cwe...)

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
(Well, I think this is true,, it means he loves you and respects you either)

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
(Awas aja ampe enggak..hahahaha...)

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
(Ya ya yaaa, asal jgn kebanyakan ngegombal aja, basi!!)

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!!

SON of GOD

Son of God, purest light
Lord on high is here tonight
Stepping through this sacred sky
Suddenly our eyes behold
Heaven's perfect plan unfold
Son of God

Son of God, love divine
Timeless one step into time
Who could dream of such ɑ thing?
With us now, the King of kings
Men and angels bow and sing

Singing alleluia, alleluia

-a beautiful song written by Michael W. Smith-