on the last day of 2009..

Today, december 31, 2009...

Many things happened in 2009...and for me, its not easy to forget this year,,well, ɑ lot of things, happiness, trouble, laughter, sorrow, presure,etc..haPpened to me this year..

I thought, 2009 would be ɑ great year ever....but the truth is, not yet..
And everythings happened so unpredictable...but still, I know, I always believe that happiness will come around us...cover up everything that have been messed up..

On this last day,,
An honesty will be so meaningful for me,,for moving on my life,,for making me live just like the new one...
Now, I'm listening to this song, and I think it still happen to me sometimes, this is an honesty,, and I gotta let myself know that I can live my life better after this last day...

_ɑ song by Alter Bridge_

"In Loving Memory"

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

Ooo's

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
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# that was ɑ perfect song... guess I have to be better tommorow, on the 1st day of 2010,, so, I listen to this song, feels that i have to be honest, so that I can leave it all behind...on this last day of 2009..

Memories never been easy to erase...but we can still going on our steps to move forward, so, just leave it all behind...

I promise myself,,that I can do everything to complete my spirit...fullfil my days with hope and dreams that can still be true...because from now on, every breath that I take, it won't remind me of those painfull stuffs anymore..

I'm just the way I am...
I'm nothing but ordinary..
I'm everything I am because God loves me
And I realize that there still ɑ lot of people out there who will be my happiness, my spirit, my dream..

May Jesus guide my heart and make me strong,, and I wish loves may come around me for all this long time..

Said, Welcome 2010!!!!! I definetely ready!!!!!