my very hard week, yet my very weak me

Minggu ini berat bgt. Kata pertama yg menggambarkan ceritaku. And I feel so week during this very hard week. Senin ujian kompre kontes!!! Ini menegangkan bgttt, krn hasil makalah kelompokku jg ga bagus2 bgt, banyak salah, mana waktu komprenya jg ragu-ragu jawabnya!!! Help!! Pengen nangis!! Gara2 ini jg di hari selasa yg notabene adalah hari libur pun aku masih ga bisa menikmatinya krn harus nge revisi makalah kontes aka konstruksi tes psikologi! Mata kuliah paling 'mematikan'di psikologi!!!

Huufhh!! I've done it finally and I ask to God His kindness so that I can pass this subject!!! Pleaaasssssee gamau bgt ngulang ya Tuhan :(

Besides my assignment problems,,ada jg beberapa masalah pribadi,masalah hati, masalah perasaan :(( and this problems makes me so sad!! Deep down my heart I'm just ɑ human and ɑ lot of things just happened and it makes me scared!! :( I just wanna be happy, I don't want anything else!! I'm okay with anything as long as we still be together!! Through all the bad times :) *ireallywishforthattrustme* harus banyak2 berdoa!!! Aku bukan org yg sempurna, sering bgt bikin Tuhan kecewa, tp aku tau Tuhan denger doaku!!everynights, everyday, I pray and always ask him for one thing :) He knows it, and let Him do His will for me and my life. Aku cm berharap semuanya akan baik2 aja! Tetep bisa bahagia, sama2, selamanya :)

when we face a difficult time...

I've learn a lot about this painfull time, heartbreak, complicated, dilema, but one thing that is really important is no matter how hard the situation is, every breath that I take, I feel I'm blessed...

If you have this kind of situation this time, just remember my words : "You gotta live. Stand for it, because no matter how difficult your problem is, you still have to know how it ends" that is the only reason you have to stand still above your hard time.. And I do belive, life is wonderfull... We already know, if we want to taste ɑ happiness, we all need to be sad, because if we never feel sad, we never know what exactly the happiness is?

So, be thankfull all the time for what you got in ure life № matter how painfull it is, because you know that without this painfull time, you never gonna taste ɑ happiness, and you never feel that life is gonna be just fine and awesome..

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Sunday, 26 sept 2010...

Hari ini saya malas ngapa2in,,bener2 ingin menikmati saat2 bermalas2an yg setotal-totalnya!! Dan ternyata diem drmh seharian penuh itu sangat menyenangkan. Dan saat2 spt ini sangat jarang saya dapatkan..hmm biasanya dr senin-sabtu pasti keluar rmh, sampe drmh tinggal capenya doank,,

Di saat me-time ky gini justru byk bgt inspirasi yg dtg, byk bgt hal-hal menyenangkan dan unik yg ga prnah kt pikirkan sblmnya muncul tb2 di pikiran. Well, sometimes its funny...
- Saat ini sy tiba2 sadar bahwa saya org yg memiliki banyak minat, tp belum satupun terkoordinasi dg baik..
- saya tb2 berpikiran apa jadinya hdp ini jika petis tdk pernah ditemukan (oke, yg ini memang random!!maaf)
- saya berpikir bgmn saya akan menghabiskan waktu hdp saya sampai saya tua nantinya,,
- saya berpikir apakah suatu hari nanti saya bisa memiliki bisnis sendiri dr salah satu minat saya yg sudah saya realisasikan,,
- saya berpikir akan memiliki brp anak kah saya nanti?? Dan saya selalu berdoa agar anak2 saya lucu,manis,pintar,dan menyenangkan...
- saya jg berpikir mau sampai kpn saya menyukai wrna2 standar yg disukai perempuan yaitu "Pink"(menandakan betapa standartnya selera saya haha)..
- saya juga berandai2 kapan saya bisa melihat dan menyentuh salju dan membuat boneka snowman dari salju itu
- kapankah saya menjadi perempuan yg pandai memasak?? (Ini pertanyaan sangat penting krn selama ini sy suka makan tp tdk prnah mahir dlm memasak)
- saya jg berpikiran apakah saya akan memotong rambut panjang saya mjd pendek cepak ekstreem spt dulu
- yg plg membuat sy bertanya2 adalah : stlh sy lulus kuliah nanti, apakah saya akan bekerja di bidang psikologi ataukah di bidang yg sm skali tdk berkaitan dg itu??
- apakah pacar saya ini adalah suami saya nantinya?? Hmm, we will never know, I wish he will, but it all gonna be my biggest suprise

Well, segala pertanyaan yg sebenarnya bisa saya jawab sndiri nantinya, it all just the matter of time...and I always know, klo berjalan bersama Tuhan, I never have to worry about my future, krn Dia punya rancangan terindah buat saya dan hdp saya...amin..

He said that everthings gonna be Ok!!!!

‎​SORRY but its true :/

ONE DAY A DAD COMES HOME DRUNK AND MAD. HE PULLS OUT A GUN AND SHOOTS HIS WIFE AND THEN TURNS THE GUN ON HIMSELF. HIS LITTLE GIRL SITS BEHIND THE COUCH CRYING. THE POLICE CAME AND TOOK THE LITTLE GIRL TO A NEW FAMILY. HER FIRST DAY TO SUNDAY SCHOOL SHE WALKS TO THE BUILDING AND SEES A PICTURE OF JESUS ON THE CROSS. THE LITTLE GIRL ASKS THE TEACHER: how did that man get off the cross? THE TEACHER REPLIED: he never did.THE LITTLE GIRL ARGUED: yes he did, the night mommy and daddy died, he sat next to me behind the couch telling me everything was gonna be alright.

------this is ɑ true story------

That's what it gonna be, could be, and always be...

Sometimes when everythings seems perfect,,but its not meant to be, so, it'll never gonna make it.....
And sometimes, everythings such ɑ complicated, kind ɑ mess, but it meant to be, so, it still feels lovely...

But that's what life gonna be, could be, and 'seems to be' like always be.....

And when everything feels warm, happy, and safe....just go for it,,,eventough it could be ɑ complicated one.....but I'm pretty sure that as long as you do the right thing,on the right purpose, then God will guide your heart....and He will be responsible for your problems, because He'd already give you the way....so, I think, no matter how hard it was, but its meant to be....so, just move on it....cause I know for sure, if you never gonna let God down,,never give up something that God ever give you....altough its been too difficult to be done, God will never leave you...

Just go get your happiness, no matter what.... =) and don't be afraid of anything!!